This past year and a half has been stressful and it feels as if everything consuming me. Why does bad things always happen to good people? I break my ankle, I lose the one person at school that I really liked, I get into a car accident, my favorite teacher dies; however I can handle these things.
What’s bothering me is when my cousin tried to kill my dad, but my cousin dies instead and my dad had been in jail since. He has been there a year now on self defense. Ever since, My family on my dad’s side hate us. They talk so much shit about us. My own family and I couldn’t even say goodbye to my cousin because they font don’t want us around.
My high school classmate was shot in the back from running away. He wasn’t the intended target but some idiot decided to shot in a crowd. He was the best person anyone could meet, he had no enemies, yet he got shot. 2 weeks later another classmate dies: car accident. why do bad things happen to good people? My dad didn’t deserve that, bobby didn’t deserve that, neither did mike.
There is so much weight on my heart. I’m so tired of having to see my dad via a phone and a tv screen, I’m tired so seeing friends in caskets, I am tired of all these bad things happening.
I want to have more good times not more bad news. More good memories and happy moments. No more hurt or pain or sorrow. Why can’t there be more love in this world?
It is so hard to smile even there is do much weight on your heart.
I’ve set 14 alarms to wake up for work tomorrow, hopefully that’s enough